MY LIFE BEHIND JORIBEN.COM

My desktop is becoming too cluttered and it is making me too lazy to work so I decided to have a Windows Desktop Spring cleaning session.  I’m the type of guy who dumps everything that I need immediately on the Desktop because I hate browsing from folder to folder and partition to partition.  Though this files are not meant to stay on the Desktop and will be transferred to my partition for archiving when I finally don’t need it, most of the time it takes months before I finish using the files.  So after several days my windows desktop becomes too messy and populated by different files ranging from image files, videos and installation applications. Now I decided to create grouping folders for all the files who have the same purpose.  Now all the files will be organized and easily located in folders together with other files on the same category.

Now I can think more clearly with this squeaky clean Desktop. Now it is just a matter of time when this Desktop becomes messy again.  Haha.

P.S. I added a new wallpaper that I believe enhances the bad ass vibe of my working atmosphere.  And I’m really so excited for this film.  Oh I wish it is already April.

Currently stressed today because this day is officially a backlog cleaning day.  I’ve been busy since the Holiday training myself and relearning a lot of things that I may need for my job applications not to mention the wasted days when I was rushed in the hospital after New Year.  Now piles of work is left undone.  So now I’m currently in front of my laptop finishing them all.  

Now back to regular programming…

The only people who got the right to complain about FB’s new Timeline are those who have balls to boycott FB.  Now if you are that person who can’t live without Facebook then better shut up and start practicing using the Timeline.

Will be uploading old artworks again to my portfolio from my deviantART account.  Trying to salvage all those good stuff that I use to do. And maybe while doing that, reality can remind me that I use to draw a lot.  And when I say a lot, every  hour, every minute and every second.  

What happened?

Work happened…

Blogs happened…

Shit happened…

I miss my old self… hayz…

That awkward moment when you are about to brush your teeth but notice that you’re holding a comb. Yes there’s a toothpaste on the comb O_O

Like what Jose Rizal’s famous phrase say: “Ang Kabataan ang Pag-asa ng Bayan” (the children is the hope of the country).  Because they have the potential to be the next leaders for this nation.  And whether we like it or not, they are the one who will be left ruling the lands for future generations.  But what will you feel if one of those kids is like the one below.  Read and be shocked.

A teenager who thinks she knows everything.  A teenager consumed by arrogance and false intelligence.  The sad reality is, she is not alone.  With the advancement of technology, knowledge is easily acquired compared to the previous generations who sheds blood and tears (not to mention money) just to learn.  These kids need a wake up call and should stop and think twice that they are nothing compared to those who achieve greatness through dedication and humility and not through google and wikipedia.

I tried visiting her tumblr and found out that she already deleted the post.  And now she is whining about being bullied.  All I can say is, when you give hate, expect that you’ll also get hate.  It is not bullying, it is just reacting.  Oh well since you think you are being bullied, here’s something for you.  Just for fun.

She also changed the tumblr’s template and relabeled the page as a parody account.  And also she is now saying that she is just a 12 years old with suicidal tendencies so people should not bully her.  Wow… just wow.  She think we’re stupid?  Oh please, you need to do something better than that.  You just convinced us that you don’t really deserve UST.

Mag-vocational course ka nalang ‘te.  God bless you.

Thanks for everyone who are texting and messaging me and asking how am I doing. Awa ng diyos I’m still alive and kicking. For now I still need to rest for a day or two before I go back to my regular routine.

Thanks for the prayers, miss you all.

P.S.

Can’t wait to take my usual medicines: Movies and Plays.

Just got back after enjoying a cool shower in the rain.  It’s been years (or months) since the last time I just went out there and enjoy the rain hitting my skin.  It so refreshing and somehow very liberating.  Liberating in terms of being free from all the stress and tension of life that causes burn out and most of the time sudden depression.

I’m came to earth in April 2 when my mother gave birth to me.  I was born an Arian under the element of fire.  So it always puzzles me why do I like being close to water if I’m in fact a Fire elemental.  I know many people don’t believe with this Astrological bullshit but real or not it is still a part of a worldwide culture.  

The recent news about the changes in Zodiac signs bugs almost everyone.  Trending discussions yesterday proves that people are indeed concerned with these changes.  That includes me.

Kahit anong mangyari.  Aries pa rin ako.

This is my first statement when I heard the news.  Of course my initial reaction is to defend what I’ve been believing for years.  That I’m an Arian, I’m the pioneer of the Zodiacs and I’m strong willed and enthusiastic.  Embracing this belief for more than 2 decades makes me confident and strong.

But then again when I checked the qualities of a Pisces, I was shocked that it greatly resembles my personality. Imaginative, sensitive, sympathetic and compassionate.  Further analysis of Pisces personality also opens my mind on some recessive personality that I’m trying to cope.  Like being a leader.  Arians are good leaders.  I do like being a leader but somehow deep inside me prefers being a follower which is a true Pisces quality.

So maybe this is really it.  Maybe the change of Zodiac is a calling for everybody that no matter how you pretend to be something that you are not, even the stars will change their paths to reveal your true colors.

I was born a blazing Arian, courageous and proud.  But I will be happy to splash my way as a Pisces if it shows who really I am..

photo credits: Niccolo Cosme and sxc.hu

After being up all night (thanks to CSI, CSI:Miami, Glee and No Ordinary Family), I skipped lunch again and decided to just take a time out on my cube and have a power nap.  But instead of a nap, I fell in to a very deep sleep.  Another unusual thing about this dream is that I remember most of the important details and this involves a blogger friend and an online brand.

Here is my Dream:

I was inside a room with bloggers.  At this moment, I don’t recognize any one of them.  The room looks like a class room because it has desks.  Then suddenly a number of  ”Taong Grasas” entered the room and started being to cozy with the bloggers to the extent of hugging them.  In the dream I was disgusted and left the room afraid of getting germs from the “Taong Grasas”.  As I exit the door.  This confirms that we are in a school because I saw a corridor full of students.  The corridor looks like my High school alma mater hallway.  I was half way the corridor when suddenly I got dizzy.  Thinking that this is because of the “Taong Grasas”, I turned back and decided to go back to the room.  From a far, the room’s door opened and from there a first clear vision of the only blogger I recognize on my dream, it is Omar Itay.  He is flashing a paper with a logo of an online brand.  And that brand is NuffNAng.  Then just a few meters from the door, I drop on the floor slowly losing my consciousness while Omar runs to my rescue together with an unrecognized guy (could be a blogger or a student).  Then after several minutes I woke up but still dizzy, now I’m on a bed, not sure if it is a Hospital bed or just a school infirmary.  There is a meal served and the only thing I can remember on that plate is a scrambled egg probably hinting that it is already morning.  No one is there though I can see some nurse passing by.  That is the moment when I felt that this is just a dream.  I tried to wake up and viola I returned to my office cube.  Then I start typing this blog so that I can chronicle my dream experience but when I was in the middle of my task suddenly I felt a kick.  And right there I woke up again in front of my computer in front of a blank tumblr editor page.  

Wow, haven’t experienced that for a while.  Dream within a dream.  Creepy.  I should have brought my totem.

The sun just set and the twilight just consumed the yellow sun.  I just asked my brother to get me some booze from the nearby sari-sari store.  I think I need a little drink after that text Message.  I thought it is already over.  No connections… No Communications.  But she always love doing this.  Out of the blue, words from her appear on my mobile phone.  And she know how affected I am whenever she do that thing.

She also know that even if I don’t reply, I will still read the fucking text message because it could be something about him.

“I know you are there.  Nangungumusta lang kami dito.”

I didn’t reply.

“Do you want me to call, para makausap mo siya?  He wants to talk to you.”

How come he wants to talk to me?  The last time I checked she already ruined me in front of him.  I can’t forget that day when he pushed me away.

“He really wants to talk to you.  But if you really don’t want, I just got in touch to say na he is ok.  Malusog.  Di naman na siya nagkakasakit.  My Job is a little more stable.  Don’t worry this time I will not bug you about money.  I can handle it na.”

No messages follow after that.

The beers are already here.  I think I will be going to bed early after I consume this.

It is 4:30 am and yes, still here in front of my laptop (obviously) reading a friend’s blog.  She keep’s on asking me to read about it.  But since I’ve been busy for months, I didn’t got the chance to stop by her blog.

Not until last night.  I started reading her blog that chronicles her life as a young professional in Makati falling in love with an asshole.  Strange but I enjoy reading her blog.  Well, I like watching chick flicks so her blog is not a big problem.

In fact she just gave me an idea.  But I need to think about it.  Because it is definitely an extra baggage for me.

Ciao for now.